I’m annoyed. Angry. Fucking mad. I feel like my heart is as heavy as hell.

I want to scream, to hit you. To hit you so hard in the face that you die. I want to slap you. I want to cry so hard. But mostly I just want to curse you to your face. Say every single curse word I could think of, and I want you to feel bad. I want you to feel so bad. I even want to break up with you, just so you’ll feel bad. I want to delete your number, turn off my phone and forget about you.

I want you to regret everything you did and realize that I was the best you had. I want you to cry. I want to you be fucking sad. I want you to be paranoid. I want to hurt you. I want you to feel pain. So much pain. I want you to be miserable. Sometimes I even feel like killing you. I want to rip your heart out.

But I can’t.